My blogs have had various incarnations over the years. I started blogging at neophytegirl.net a long time ago, when I had my own domain. This was many years ago. I know I had a backup of it sometime ago, but I can't find it.....at least at the moment. I've had my LJ and now recently I had toocurvyagain at wordpress and abostongirlinglasgow which I merged into one.
But I think it is time for a change. I'm still a Boston girl. I'm still in Glasgow. But that isn't who I am and it isn't what defines me. I was going to have a vote or a suggestion entry about what I should change the name of my blog to. And then I realized, having someone else name it, won't work.
Hence- Cindy's struggles. That is my name, and well my life has been a series of struggles.
So that is that.
The London trip was fun and packed and yes, I met David Tennant and Catherine Tate. The play was brilliant. Absolutely brilliant- I want to go back and see it again and again (and if I can get down there to see it again, I will- after my dissertation is done, of course!) I hope to get to write up about the play ASAP.
As far as the healthiness journey goes, I'm working on eliminating gluten to see if it helps with the headaches. I hope to get back to the gym this week as well. If it doesn't happen, I am not going to stress too much over it as I believe I have about 2 weeks to finish my dissertation, and that has to come first. I will have plenty of time afterwards.
How do you deal with stress, deadlines, and workouts?
Showing posts with label headache. Show all posts
Showing posts with label headache. Show all posts
02 July 2011
22 June 2011
Neuro update
So today was my actual neuro appt. I went all the way to Southern General yesterday and found that the appt was today. I'm SO smart. I thought I was seeing a new neuro- but I saw the same one I saw the last time.
I gave him the rundown and he does not think that I have anything internally wrong with my head. He does think the headaches are chronic daily treatment resistant migraines. He gave me 2 choices. To go back to the beginning and start over, or to go on a medication that causes severe weight gain and hair loss. Which do you think I chose? As if I need any more difficulties losing weight. *eyeroll*
So I have to go to the GP tomorrow to get 2 new prescriptions. One which is like amitriptaline that they can titrate up, and one for a triptan to help with the pain, but it can only be taken twice a week (so it's like playing Russian roulette as to when the headache is the worst.)
This has been going on 5 years. 5 years. *sigh*
I gave him the rundown and he does not think that I have anything internally wrong with my head. He does think the headaches are chronic daily treatment resistant migraines. He gave me 2 choices. To go back to the beginning and start over, or to go on a medication that causes severe weight gain and hair loss. Which do you think I chose? As if I need any more difficulties losing weight. *eyeroll*
So I have to go to the GP tomorrow to get 2 new prescriptions. One which is like amitriptaline that they can titrate up, and one for a triptan to help with the pain, but it can only be taken twice a week (so it's like playing Russian roulette as to when the headache is the worst.)
This has been going on 5 years. 5 years. *sigh*
08 June 2011
How do you do it?
Every day I read a lot of blogs (mostly when I should be working on my dissertation) and one thing I've noticed overall is how almost all the writers are up early working out or up early working (even if they aren't working in the workplace.)
As a grad student I make my own hours, and I find it difficult to get up before noon. Getting up today at around 10:30ish was killer and required a nap later on. Even when on vacation in London when we had to get up for free breakfast (which is a real motivator in my books) we managed it twice. And that was only making sure we were up by 9:20, a feat which should be relatively easy.
Even when I was working full time and had to get up at 6ish, it was difficult and it took a lot of coffee to get me going. Don't even get me started on trying to workout before. The few times I attempted it left me red faced, sweaty and icky, and that was before dealing with the kids at school!
So, how do you do it? Is sleeping late the cause of my weight gain and inability to lose weight? Is it the wacky hours I keep? Is it eating dinner at 9pm or later? Or is it my laziness? Is it caused by being so far away from home and knowing that if I go out, when I come back I have to walk up 3 flights of stairs which makes my ankle hurt and my lungs want to collapse? Is it a side effect of all those years of meds which never worked to try to fix my headache which still hasn't gone away, or from wrecking my body with Optifast in 2006?
Am I just making excuses?
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I think I know I am frustrated. I expected in the 2 weeks I worked out a lot to have lost at least a pound. Right? I was eating better, working out, I had more energy. So of course I gained 3 pounds.
Being sick for the past 2 weeks hasn't really helped and I've managed a handful of workouts and the 5K b/c I haven't had the energy or been able to breathe from the coughing to workout. (I've been to the doctor- they said it lasts 2-3 weeks, and there is nothing they can do, I just need rest and fluids, which I've been doing.)
I hope after my quickie trip to London this weekend I will be feeling more myself and back to working out and whatnot. Because I certainly do not want to feel this way anymore.
How do you overcome setbacks?
Are you a morning person?
As a grad student I make my own hours, and I find it difficult to get up before noon. Getting up today at around 10:30ish was killer and required a nap later on. Even when on vacation in London when we had to get up for free breakfast (which is a real motivator in my books) we managed it twice. And that was only making sure we were up by 9:20, a feat which should be relatively easy.
Even when I was working full time and had to get up at 6ish, it was difficult and it took a lot of coffee to get me going. Don't even get me started on trying to workout before. The few times I attempted it left me red faced, sweaty and icky, and that was before dealing with the kids at school!
So, how do you do it? Is sleeping late the cause of my weight gain and inability to lose weight? Is it the wacky hours I keep? Is it eating dinner at 9pm or later? Or is it my laziness? Is it caused by being so far away from home and knowing that if I go out, when I come back I have to walk up 3 flights of stairs which makes my ankle hurt and my lungs want to collapse? Is it a side effect of all those years of meds which never worked to try to fix my headache which still hasn't gone away, or from wrecking my body with Optifast in 2006?
Am I just making excuses?
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Being sick for the past 2 weeks hasn't really helped and I've managed a handful of workouts and the 5K b/c I haven't had the energy or been able to breathe from the coughing to workout. (I've been to the doctor- they said it lasts 2-3 weeks, and there is nothing they can do, I just need rest and fluids, which I've been doing.)
I hope after my quickie trip to London this weekend I will be feeling more myself and back to working out and whatnot. Because I certainly do not want to feel this way anymore.
How do you overcome setbacks?
Are you a morning person?
25 May 2011
All about me
After participating in last night's #fitblog on twitter (hosted beautifully by Skinny Emmie!) I got a ton of new followers. Hopefully this will translate to new followers and commenters here! So I figured I would post an about me. If you know me, feel free to move along.
I don't know where to begin really. I was born and raised in MA, USA. Up until last September, I lived in Boston as a substitute teacher. (I'm a licensed teacher in MA, in elementary education- but there are few jobs.) I am currently living in Glasgow, Scotland getting my second Masters in education. I will be spending the summer working on my dissertation on school bullying.
I've applied to the PhD program here and am waiting on finding out if I've been accepted. If so, I will be researching bullying and its effects on upper primary grade children. If I am not accepted, I will be having a nervous breakdown figuring out what I am going to do come September.
I've always been overweight. In 1999 I started working out and eating better (and a lot less) and lost 85 pounds. I didn't keep up the healthy lifestyle for a variety of reasons and over the past 10 years have gained all the weight back.
I tried several different diets, and in 2003 I went on Optifast. I got really ill on this diet and didn't lose much weight at all (~10lbs), despite eating less than 900 calories a day and running 3 days a week. Since then I have suffered from severe daily headaches that can leave me bedridden and miserable. I have had countless tests and have seen 5 different neurologists. The diagnoses range from chronic daily headache syndrome to chronic daily migraines. Not one of the 5 doctors have had a definitive diagnosis or agreed with one another. It is frustrating, but I try to manage as best as I can.
Earlier last year I had been doing a lot better weight wise and right before I had breast reduction surgery in July. After moving to Scotland and then losing my mum earlier this year, I've managed to gain a lot of weight despite trying various diet plans and recently going back to the gym. I am assuming that this has to do with me eating my emotions and not dealing with how I am feeling over moving and losing my mum. I mostly think I really like food and eating it- I just need to re-learn how to do it in moderation and not lose control.
Right now I am trying to get back into regular workouts as I love how it makes me feel (especially spinning), but I have a hard time staying motivated when I don't see any results. (I know I shouldn't expect to see a lot of results in 2 weeks, but I had hoped to have found I hadn't *gained* even more weight.)
Questions? Comments? Fire away!
I don't know where to begin really. I was born and raised in MA, USA. Up until last September, I lived in Boston as a substitute teacher. (I'm a licensed teacher in MA, in elementary education- but there are few jobs.) I am currently living in Glasgow, Scotland getting my second Masters in education. I will be spending the summer working on my dissertation on school bullying.
I've applied to the PhD program here and am waiting on finding out if I've been accepted. If so, I will be researching bullying and its effects on upper primary grade children. If I am not accepted, I will be having a nervous breakdown figuring out what I am going to do come September.
I've always been overweight. In 1999 I started working out and eating better (and a lot less) and lost 85 pounds. I didn't keep up the healthy lifestyle for a variety of reasons and over the past 10 years have gained all the weight back.
I tried several different diets, and in 2003 I went on Optifast. I got really ill on this diet and didn't lose much weight at all (~10lbs), despite eating less than 900 calories a day and running 3 days a week. Since then I have suffered from severe daily headaches that can leave me bedridden and miserable. I have had countless tests and have seen 5 different neurologists. The diagnoses range from chronic daily headache syndrome to chronic daily migraines. Not one of the 5 doctors have had a definitive diagnosis or agreed with one another. It is frustrating, but I try to manage as best as I can.
Earlier last year I had been doing a lot better weight wise and right before I had breast reduction surgery in July. After moving to Scotland and then losing my mum earlier this year, I've managed to gain a lot of weight despite trying various diet plans and recently going back to the gym. I am assuming that this has to do with me eating my emotions and not dealing with how I am feeling over moving and losing my mum. I mostly think I really like food and eating it- I just need to re-learn how to do it in moderation and not lose control.
Right now I am trying to get back into regular workouts as I love how it makes me feel (especially spinning), but I have a hard time staying motivated when I don't see any results. (I know I shouldn't expect to see a lot of results in 2 weeks, but I had hoped to have found I hadn't *gained* even more weight.)
Questions? Comments? Fire away!
10 April 2011
another week gone
and another 2lbs up. :( I have no idea what is wrong with me. It makes me want to cry.
I'm afraid I'm going to become a hermit or a recluse or one of those people who can't get out of their homes b/c they are too fat.
All I want to do is eat. Food tastes good and it is easier than admitting I'm bored or tired or in pain or lonely or the fact I miss my mum or any number of things.
That going out now is so fucking exhausting and I don't want to b/c I have to go up all those stairs when I get back and it is so painful and it hurts. Everything hurts. My shoulder, my head, my ankle.
I'm afraid I'm going to become a hermit or a recluse or one of those people who can't get out of their homes b/c they are too fat.
All I want to do is eat. Food tastes good and it is easier than admitting I'm bored or tired or in pain or lonely or the fact I miss my mum or any number of things.
That going out now is so fucking exhausting and I don't want to b/c I have to go up all those stairs when I get back and it is so painful and it hurts. Everything hurts. My shoulder, my head, my ankle.
The scale keeps going up and up and up and it makes me wonder why I bother and why I even exist. Stephanie is going to leave me b/c I am so fat and she can't even want to be with me. I don't even want to LOOK at myself anymore. It's why I don't bother with makeup anymore. I have to look at myself to put it on. And I can't be bothered to put on a mask. I'm too down and low to even bother b/c I know it; how hideous I am and what a waste it was for that surgery.
I should be close my goal weight by now. Not 30+ lbs heavier than a year ago.
Living sucks. I don't know how to do it anymore. I don 't know how to cope. I don't know how to be happy. I feel sick because of how I've ended up but I don't have the energy to fix it. Just walking to uni is exhausting. Just getting up is exhausting. Writing this paper that is due in a week is exhausting.
I am just so drained and emotional. I know I must be grieving, but I don't even know how to do that right. I just miss my mum..... no more phone calls or birthday cards. No more Red Sox games. I just want to hear her voice. I just want that time back. I am so angry at myself. And I had no closure and I am so so so angry. I just wish she could tell me it was going to be ok. Just one more time.
04 April 2011
Bleurg
Bleurg. This weight loss and exercise keeps getting derailed. First, my shoulder (which still isn't back to normal), my ankle (which is starting to get better), and my never ending headaches.
My weight is up again- only a pound, but still. I have now gained 30 pounds since my surgery in July. NOT THE RIGHT WAY AROUND.
I'm trying a few things out to see if it helps. I am starting to taper off on some of my meds to see if they are affecting my weight gain. We got a stability ball and a mini trampoline that I can use at home. I downloaded some Tae Bo and I am going to try to get to a spinning class this week. I am walking more, as much as my ankle will let me- as it heals.
I would really like to be down to 200 by the end of the month- which is not likely to happen but I would like it before I go to London- to look and feel better about myself.
My weight is up again- only a pound, but still. I have now gained 30 pounds since my surgery in July. NOT THE RIGHT WAY AROUND.
I'm trying a few things out to see if it helps. I am starting to taper off on some of my meds to see if they are affecting my weight gain. We got a stability ball and a mini trampoline that I can use at home. I downloaded some Tae Bo and I am going to try to get to a spinning class this week. I am walking more, as much as my ankle will let me- as it heals.
I would really like to be down to 200 by the end of the month- which is not likely to happen but I would like it before I go to London- to look and feel better about myself.
22 February 2011
New new new new new neuro
Yes, this was neuro #5. He seemed pleasant enough, but did cut me off a few times when I was explaining some of the medical history and he also declined a copy of the records I had brought with me.
He asked all the usual questions that I have been asked countless times before and he did a basic neuro exam (similiar to what neuro #2 used to do).
Diagnosis: Chronic headache with migranious tendencies (or chronic migraine w/out aura). I find this amusing b/c I had been told by 4 other neurologists that these headaches aren't migraines. He is basing it on the fact that when my head hurts I want to lay down and be alone. Doesn't everyone want to do that when they have a headache? *shrugs*
I mentioned that it might be tied in with my cycles and he wasn't convinced. (???) and said that regular pills were not advisable at my age (JFC I'm only 35. Oh God I'm 35. Someone prep my headstone now) and that I could try a mini pill, but he didn't want to add too many things in at once and it will be revisited in 3 months when I go again.
So the plan is...
Continue Venlafaxine in am. Currently continue ativan. Add flunarizine as a preventative at night. For pain, I have to go to get a script for some naproxen/triptan combination which will probably kill me but he said this is a far lower dose than the imitrex that sent me to the ER. He also wants me to stop the ativan. I should be titrated off it, he said. I am concerned about this b/c what happens when I have a debilitating panic attack and have no pharmacological help? He said there was nothing that could be prescribed. So everyone in the UK who has anxiety issues just sits there and takes it? I don't believe that for a second. I am hoping my GP can assist me in that area. My mom is sick back home (she is doing fine BTW) and I am trying to get my dissertation started. I need help with the anxiety. It isn't a joke. He al,so said it was harder to come off of ativan than heroin. FUN TIEMS AHEAD. (or not)
Who knows, maybe this new med will be the magic pill . . . . .
He asked all the usual questions that I have been asked countless times before and he did a basic neuro exam (similiar to what neuro #2 used to do).
Diagnosis: Chronic headache with migranious tendencies (or chronic migraine w/out aura). I find this amusing b/c I had been told by 4 other neurologists that these headaches aren't migraines. He is basing it on the fact that when my head hurts I want to lay down and be alone. Doesn't everyone want to do that when they have a headache? *shrugs*
I mentioned that it might be tied in with my cycles and he wasn't convinced. (???) and said that regular pills were not advisable at my age (JFC I'm only 35. Oh God I'm 35. Someone prep my headstone now) and that I could try a mini pill, but he didn't want to add too many things in at once and it will be revisited in 3 months when I go again.
So the plan is...
Continue Venlafaxine in am. Currently continue ativan. Add flunarizine as a preventative at night. For pain, I have to go to get a script for some naproxen/triptan combination which will probably kill me but he said this is a far lower dose than the imitrex that sent me to the ER. He also wants me to stop the ativan. I should be titrated off it, he said. I am concerned about this b/c what happens when I have a debilitating panic attack and have no pharmacological help? He said there was nothing that could be prescribed. So everyone in the UK who has anxiety issues just sits there and takes it? I don't believe that for a second. I am hoping my GP can assist me in that area. My mom is sick back home (she is doing fine BTW) and I am trying to get my dissertation started. I need help with the anxiety. It isn't a joke. He al,so said it was harder to come off of ativan than heroin. FUN TIEMS AHEAD. (or not)
Who knows, maybe this new med will be the magic pill . . . . .
New new new new new neurologist
Yes, this was neuro #5. He seemed pleasant enough, but did cut me off a few times when I was explaining some of the medical history and he also declined a copy of the records I had brought with me.
He asked all the usual questions that I have been asked countless times before and he did a basic neuro exam (similiar to what neuro #2 used to do).
Diagnosis: Chronic headache with migranious tendencies (or chronic migraine w/out aura). I find this amusing b/c I had been told by 4 other neurologists that these headaches aren't migraines. He is basing it on the fact that when my head hurts I want to lay down and be alone. Doesn't everyone want to do that when they have a headache? *shrugs*
I mentioned that it might be tied in with my cycles and he wasn't convinced. (???) and said that regular pills were not advisable at my age (JFC I'm only 35. Oh God I'm 35. Someone prep my headstone now) and that I could try a mini pill, but he didn't want to add too many things in at once and it will be revisited in 3 months when I go again.
So the plan is...
Continue Venlafaxine in am. Currently continue ativan. Add flunarizine as a preventative at night. For pain, I have to go to get a script for some naproxen/triptan combination which will probably kill me but he said this is a far lower dose than the imitrex that sent me to the ER. He also wants me to stop the ativan. I should be titrated off it, he said. I am concerned about this b/c what happens when I have a debilitating panic attack and have no pharmacological help? He said there was nothing that could be prescribed. So everyone in the UK who has anxiety issues just sits there and takes it? I don't believe that for a second. I am hoping my GP can assist me in that area. My mom is sick back home (she is doing fine BTW) and I am trying to get my dissertation started. I need help with the anxiety. It isn't a joke. He al,so said it was harder to come off of ativan than heroin. FUN TIEMS AHEAD. (or not)
Who knows, maybe this new med will be the magic pill . . . . .
He asked all the usual questions that I have been asked countless times before and he did a basic neuro exam (similiar to what neuro #2 used to do).
Diagnosis: Chronic headache with migranious tendencies (or chronic migraine w/out aura). I find this amusing b/c I had been told by 4 other neurologists that these headaches aren't migraines. He is basing it on the fact that when my head hurts I want to lay down and be alone. Doesn't everyone want to do that when they have a headache? *shrugs*
I mentioned that it might be tied in with my cycles and he wasn't convinced. (???) and said that regular pills were not advisable at my age (JFC I'm only 35. Oh God I'm 35. Someone prep my headstone now) and that I could try a mini pill, but he didn't want to add too many things in at once and it will be revisited in 3 months when I go again.
So the plan is...
Continue Venlafaxine in am. Currently continue ativan. Add flunarizine as a preventative at night. For pain, I have to go to get a script for some naproxen/triptan combination which will probably kill me but he said this is a far lower dose than the imitrex that sent me to the ER. He also wants me to stop the ativan. I should be titrated off it, he said. I am concerned about this b/c what happens when I have a debilitating panic attack and have no pharmacological help? He said there was nothing that could be prescribed. So everyone in the UK who has anxiety issues just sits there and takes it? I don't believe that for a second. I am hoping my GP can assist me in that area. My mom is sick back home (she is doing fine BTW) and I am trying to get my dissertation started. I need help with the anxiety. It isn't a joke. He al,so said it was harder to come off of ativan than heroin. FUN TIEMS AHEAD. (or not)
Who knows, maybe this new med will be the magic pill . . . . .
21 February 2011
There is more to healthy than what is on the scale
While I find myself obsessing over the number all the time, I know there are other things I can do to help get me/keep me healthy. Today I tackled one of them.
I went to the dentist.
Now, I hate the dentist. I didn't really go much as a kid, and as an adult, once I had insurance I was there all the time making up for 15 years + of lost time. Then in my early 20's I got braces to fully take care of my very damaged and crooked teeth.
Since then they have been ok, a few cavities here and there. But when I lost full time employment in MA, I lost dental coverage. So I hadn't been to the dentist in about 2 years. I just couldn't afford the $60 + for cleanings, not to mention what fillings would cost out of pocket.
I had a consult and some xrays today and found that in one of my upper teeth there needs to be a major filling replacement. It's loose and grimy and it is an issue I have had with this tooth before, so it is no surprise. They are also going to fix my very chipped tooth in front, so finally after 7-8 years without braces, that last bit will be complete. They are also offering a teeth whitening special, but there is no way I can afford it. I can hardly afford the treatment I have to have now (169 quid!) but I can tell that the fillings are loose and need to be replaced ASAP before I have more problems.
Tomorrow's health adventure is my neuro consult (finally). I got on the phone and called them today asking why I hadn't been contacted yet, and they had an opening for tomorrow, so I grabbed it. Hopefully, whoever I see can fix this 4 year long headache, or at the very least, give me some good drugs. ;)
Let's hope I can also get in touch with the physio people so I can have my shoulder professionally evaluated as well, so working out is easier, and far less painful.
I went to the dentist.
Now, I hate the dentist. I didn't really go much as a kid, and as an adult, once I had insurance I was there all the time making up for 15 years + of lost time. Then in my early 20's I got braces to fully take care of my very damaged and crooked teeth.
Since then they have been ok, a few cavities here and there. But when I lost full time employment in MA, I lost dental coverage. So I hadn't been to the dentist in about 2 years. I just couldn't afford the $60 + for cleanings, not to mention what fillings would cost out of pocket.
I had a consult and some xrays today and found that in one of my upper teeth there needs to be a major filling replacement. It's loose and grimy and it is an issue I have had with this tooth before, so it is no surprise. They are also going to fix my very chipped tooth in front, so finally after 7-8 years without braces, that last bit will be complete. They are also offering a teeth whitening special, but there is no way I can afford it. I can hardly afford the treatment I have to have now (169 quid!) but I can tell that the fillings are loose and need to be replaced ASAP before I have more problems.
Tomorrow's health adventure is my neuro consult (finally). I got on the phone and called them today asking why I hadn't been contacted yet, and they had an opening for tomorrow, so I grabbed it. Hopefully, whoever I see can fix this 4 year long headache, or at the very least, give me some good drugs. ;)
Let's hope I can also get in touch with the physio people so I can have my shoulder professionally evaluated as well, so working out is easier, and far less painful.
13 February 2011
Sunday blues and what I got up to Saturday
I've had this headache for what seems forever, only getting minor relief. All week going to the workshop was torture. I wasn't sleeping b/c of the pain (that and my shoulder) which made getting up at 7 not so fun. I am glad it is over. I really didn't get much out of it, until Thursday and I still have no idea what my assignment is going to be on.
I managed to struggle out to the shops w/ Steph yesterday. First, we went to the farmers market down the hill and it was very cute and I had a lovely fresh scone. We got some all natural soaps and oat bars as well.
Then we went to Buchanan b/c I needed to pick up my new glasses. They were there, and I also picked up some makeup and more meds and other assorted things.
We poked around the area for a bit, popped into Forbidden Planet and then headed home. On the way home I convinced her to stop and be all girly and get a manicure. :)
I had a plan to finish my paper last night, but my head was being unreasonable in the evening so I spent half the time in the dark, and the other half we watched the first 2 episodes of Sherlock (again).
Today I have to finish my research proposal and read for Tuesday. Neither of which are at the top of my list. I hope I can get through at least finishing the paper without my head exploding.
I managed to struggle out to the shops w/ Steph yesterday. First, we went to the farmers market down the hill and it was very cute and I had a lovely fresh scone. We got some all natural soaps and oat bars as well.
Then we went to Buchanan b/c I needed to pick up my new glasses. They were there, and I also picked up some makeup and more meds and other assorted things.
We poked around the area for a bit, popped into Forbidden Planet and then headed home. On the way home I convinced her to stop and be all girly and get a manicure. :)
I had a plan to finish my paper last night, but my head was being unreasonable in the evening so I spent half the time in the dark, and the other half we watched the first 2 episodes of Sherlock (again).
Today I have to finish my research proposal and read for Tuesday. Neither of which are at the top of my list. I hope I can get through at least finishing the paper without my head exploding.
07 December 2010
Day 11
No weight today. I had a bad night's sleep and I wasn 't thinking when I woke up as a blizzard was raging outside.
Headache is not good and my chest is sore. Either I pulled something when I slipped on the ice, my surgery site is swelling, or I have PMT. Or all 3.
GLASGOW PLOW YOUR FRIGGING STREETS AND GRIT YOUR SIDEWALKS!
/end rant
Now it isn't my place to tell a foreign city how to run themselves, but for the love of Rasillon, they need to do something soon before someone gets hurt. Namely me. I shouldn't be risking my life for some bloody crumpets.
I was walking down Byres Rd, minding my own business, drinking my latte and trying not to fall on the icy, slushy sidewalk when out of the blue a car jumps the curb and nearly runs down the pedestrians, myself included.
I love how pretty the snow looks and all the festiveness and whatnot, but I would like to be able to enjoy it without breaking my neck.
It would be nice now that I want to workout to be able to get to the gym. I need to see if I have big, old books or a milk crate to use as a stepper so I can step and watch tv. I need to get moving b/c if this ice doesn't melt I'm never leaving the flat again.
Headache is not good and my chest is sore. Either I pulled something when I slipped on the ice, my surgery site is swelling, or I have PMT. Or all 3.
GLASGOW PLOW YOUR FRIGGING STREETS AND GRIT YOUR SIDEWALKS!
/end rant
Now it isn't my place to tell a foreign city how to run themselves, but for the love of Rasillon, they need to do something soon before someone gets hurt. Namely me. I shouldn't be risking my life for some bloody crumpets.
I was walking down Byres Rd, minding my own business, drinking my latte and trying not to fall on the icy, slushy sidewalk when out of the blue a car jumps the curb and nearly runs down the pedestrians, myself included.
I love how pretty the snow looks and all the festiveness and whatnot, but I would like to be able to enjoy it without breaking my neck.
It would be nice now that I want to workout to be able to get to the gym. I need to see if I have big, old books or a milk crate to use as a stepper so I can step and watch tv. I need to get moving b/c if this ice doesn't melt I'm never leaving the flat again.
15 May 2010
why can I never remember to update here?
I really need to update here. It helps keep me accountable.
I went to the gym 3 times this week, which is 3 more times than the 2 weeks before it. I didn't do any "hard" workouts. I have to listen to my body and my pounding head.
I think I gained a few pounds back, which is frustrating b/c I gained them back the week I ate the least and worked out the most. *sigh*
I just feel so fat and ick and I need to do more cardio so I can lose the fat, but everything makes the head hurt more...... so everything fails.
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
I went to the gym 3 times this week, which is 3 more times than the 2 weeks before it. I didn't do any "hard" workouts. I have to listen to my body and my pounding head.
I think I gained a few pounds back, which is frustrating b/c I gained them back the week I ate the least and worked out the most. *sigh*
I just feel so fat and ick and I need to do more cardio so I can lose the fat, but everything makes the head hurt more...... so everything fails.
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
11 November 2009
Food/Exercise log 11/11/09
Finally I got meds today, so hopefully I will be feeling better soon. For some reason the headache just won't shake. It really sucks. I want to do things but it just hurts so damned much even with the pills. *sigh* I really hope tomorrow I feel human again considering I have to work. Going 2+ days without meds was awful. The pain was incessant and made me feel horrid and I could hardly think or anything. I woke up in the night thinking I was going to die. I even put icy hot on my forehead I was at such a loss.
Breakfast:
gingerbread latte and a croissant OMG what was I thinking
Lunch:
Lean cuisine quesedilla and 1 cup of rice
snack:
clif z bar
dinner:
6 inch subway turkey
baked lays
clif z bar
Breakfast:
gingerbread latte and a croissant OMG what was I thinking
Lunch:
Lean cuisine quesedilla and 1 cup of rice
snack:
clif z bar
dinner:
6 inch subway turkey
baked lays
clif z bar
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