My blogs have had various incarnations over the years. I started blogging at neophytegirl.net a long time ago, when I had my own domain. This was many years ago. I know I had a backup of it sometime ago, but I can't find it.....at least at the moment. I've had my LJ and now recently I had toocurvyagain at wordpress and abostongirlinglasgow which I merged into one.
But I think it is time for a change. I'm still a Boston girl. I'm still in Glasgow. But that isn't who I am and it isn't what defines me. I was going to have a vote or a suggestion entry about what I should change the name of my blog to. And then I realized, having someone else name it, won't work.
Hence- Cindy's struggles. That is my name, and well my life has been a series of struggles.
So that is that.
The London trip was fun and packed and yes, I met David Tennant and Catherine Tate. The play was brilliant. Absolutely brilliant- I want to go back and see it again and again (and if I can get down there to see it again, I will- after my dissertation is done, of course!) I hope to get to write up about the play ASAP.
As far as the healthiness journey goes, I'm working on eliminating gluten to see if it helps with the headaches. I hope to get back to the gym this week as well. If it doesn't happen, I am not going to stress too much over it as I believe I have about 2 weeks to finish my dissertation, and that has to come first. I will have plenty of time afterwards.
How do you deal with stress, deadlines, and workouts?
Showing posts with label food. Show all posts
Showing posts with label food. Show all posts
02 July 2011
21 June 2011
Today's eats
I am not sure if I am feeling so lethargic due to still being sick or the low carb diet. I didn't get nearly enough done, napped, and not much else.
I wasn't as hungry today- but right now I am SO sick of chicken. Ugh. I just want a huge salad. I may not make it through the all protein phase and just go right to protein + veggies and limit carbs. I need energy for my brain to get my dissertation done, so maybe this wasn't the BEST time to try to cut carbs cold turkey.
Tomorrow I have a neuro appt. With my 6th neuro. :(
Breakfast:
2 scrambled eggs
oat bran pancake
coffee
lunch
can of tuna
1/2 chicken breast
cucumber stuff that Steph made and I didn't want it to go bad
dinner
2 chicken breasts
1/2 pancake Steph didn't eat earlier
dessert
activia yogurt + some fat free plain yogurt
And with that- bedtime!
I wasn't as hungry today- but right now I am SO sick of chicken. Ugh. I just want a huge salad. I may not make it through the all protein phase and just go right to protein + veggies and limit carbs. I need energy for my brain to get my dissertation done, so maybe this wasn't the BEST time to try to cut carbs cold turkey.
Tomorrow I have a neuro appt. With my 6th neuro. :(
Breakfast:
2 scrambled eggs
oat bran pancake
coffee
lunch
can of tuna
1/2 chicken breast
cucumber stuff that Steph made and I didn't want it to go bad
dinner
2 chicken breasts
1/2 pancake Steph didn't eat earlier
dessert
activia yogurt + some fat free plain yogurt
And with that- bedtime!
30 May 2011
Clean eating assistance
I am currently living in Glasgow, Scotland. I am looking for ideas and places to shop and things to eat that are healthy and more "clean."
1. I am a student so it needs to be reasonable.
2. I am allergic to nuts, soy, and peas. I can't have soy/almond milk, etc. This also limits bread products found in typical stores; they all have soy flour.
3. I do not eat red meat or much pork (sometimes I have bacon).
4. There are no Whole Foods type stores in Glasgow that I know of.
Any ideas/suggestions for finding stevia based products, whey protein powders, etc on a budget?
1. I am a student so it needs to be reasonable.
2. I am allergic to nuts, soy, and peas. I can't have soy/almond milk, etc. This also limits bread products found in typical stores; they all have soy flour.
3. I do not eat red meat or much pork (sometimes I have bacon).
4. There are no Whole Foods type stores in Glasgow that I know of.
Any ideas/suggestions for finding stevia based products, whey protein powders, etc on a budget?
29 May 2011
Mind games
A lot of the reasons for my lack of success (and self esteem) is because of all of the mind games I play with myself. I still mentally see myself (sometimes) as the girl who lost 85 pounds, not the girl who lost 85 pounds and gained it all back. While this should be good for my self confidence, all it takes is a look in the mirror, or an ill fitting top to change that mind set. That and how I compare myself with others and just feel worthless and jealous, even when I do not mean to be.
I also have issues when it comes to food. I *know* I should eat well. It is a no-brainer. But that doesn't stop me from eating poorly or making bad choices. People say to say to yourself that you don't need that cookie/ice cream/sweet/etc, and to remind yourself it is a bad choice and there are healthier choices out there. And even when I remember to say that to myself, or remind myself that eating xyz is not going to help me lose weight, I STILL DO IT ANYWAYS. I still do it. Now why is that? Is that a lack of self esteem? Is it not caring? Is it being self destructive? Is it just that it tastes good, and why shouldn't I eat xyz?
I just don't know. Maybe it is a combination of all those things. Maybe I just feel worthless about my life and eating is a solution to my problems, at least temporarily- even if it isn't.
I try to remember how awesome I feel after spinning or running and keep that with me and let that inspire me to make better choices. And for some reason it doesn't. I could sit here and psychoanalyze myself until I am blue in the face. I think about how I lost weight before, and well my life situation was a lot different. I had a full time job where I could have my egg white omelette made for me every morning and a healthy salad bar to choose from every afternoon. My diet was restrictive and boring and repetitive, but it worked. I do wish I could go back to that way of eating and that mentality, but I worry that I will just end up doing the same thing I did before, which is to just go crazy after I lost the weight.
I try moderation now, but that doesn't seem to work for me. I am so all or nothing it seems.
What I do know, is that I need to be more mindful, be more aware, and think now. Otherwise.....I just don't know.
I also have issues when it comes to food. I *know* I should eat well. It is a no-brainer. But that doesn't stop me from eating poorly or making bad choices. People say to say to yourself that you don't need that cookie/ice cream/sweet/etc, and to remind yourself it is a bad choice and there are healthier choices out there. And even when I remember to say that to myself, or remind myself that eating xyz is not going to help me lose weight, I STILL DO IT ANYWAYS. I still do it. Now why is that? Is that a lack of self esteem? Is it not caring? Is it being self destructive? Is it just that it tastes good, and why shouldn't I eat xyz?
I just don't know. Maybe it is a combination of all those things. Maybe I just feel worthless about my life and eating is a solution to my problems, at least temporarily- even if it isn't.
I try to remember how awesome I feel after spinning or running and keep that with me and let that inspire me to make better choices. And for some reason it doesn't. I could sit here and psychoanalyze myself until I am blue in the face. I think about how I lost weight before, and well my life situation was a lot different. I had a full time job where I could have my egg white omelette made for me every morning and a healthy salad bar to choose from every afternoon. My diet was restrictive and boring and repetitive, but it worked. I do wish I could go back to that way of eating and that mentality, but I worry that I will just end up doing the same thing I did before, which is to just go crazy after I lost the weight.
I try moderation now, but that doesn't seem to work for me. I am so all or nothing it seems.
What I do know, is that I need to be more mindful, be more aware, and think now. Otherwise.....I just don't know.
25 May 2011
All about me
After participating in last night's #fitblog on twitter (hosted beautifully by Skinny Emmie!) I got a ton of new followers. Hopefully this will translate to new followers and commenters here! So I figured I would post an about me. If you know me, feel free to move along.
I don't know where to begin really. I was born and raised in MA, USA. Up until last September, I lived in Boston as a substitute teacher. (I'm a licensed teacher in MA, in elementary education- but there are few jobs.) I am currently living in Glasgow, Scotland getting my second Masters in education. I will be spending the summer working on my dissertation on school bullying.
I've applied to the PhD program here and am waiting on finding out if I've been accepted. If so, I will be researching bullying and its effects on upper primary grade children. If I am not accepted, I will be having a nervous breakdown figuring out what I am going to do come September.
I've always been overweight. In 1999 I started working out and eating better (and a lot less) and lost 85 pounds. I didn't keep up the healthy lifestyle for a variety of reasons and over the past 10 years have gained all the weight back.
I tried several different diets, and in 2003 I went on Optifast. I got really ill on this diet and didn't lose much weight at all (~10lbs), despite eating less than 900 calories a day and running 3 days a week. Since then I have suffered from severe daily headaches that can leave me bedridden and miserable. I have had countless tests and have seen 5 different neurologists. The diagnoses range from chronic daily headache syndrome to chronic daily migraines. Not one of the 5 doctors have had a definitive diagnosis or agreed with one another. It is frustrating, but I try to manage as best as I can.
Earlier last year I had been doing a lot better weight wise and right before I had breast reduction surgery in July. After moving to Scotland and then losing my mum earlier this year, I've managed to gain a lot of weight despite trying various diet plans and recently going back to the gym. I am assuming that this has to do with me eating my emotions and not dealing with how I am feeling over moving and losing my mum. I mostly think I really like food and eating it- I just need to re-learn how to do it in moderation and not lose control.
Right now I am trying to get back into regular workouts as I love how it makes me feel (especially spinning), but I have a hard time staying motivated when I don't see any results. (I know I shouldn't expect to see a lot of results in 2 weeks, but I had hoped to have found I hadn't *gained* even more weight.)
Questions? Comments? Fire away!
I don't know where to begin really. I was born and raised in MA, USA. Up until last September, I lived in Boston as a substitute teacher. (I'm a licensed teacher in MA, in elementary education- but there are few jobs.) I am currently living in Glasgow, Scotland getting my second Masters in education. I will be spending the summer working on my dissertation on school bullying.
I've applied to the PhD program here and am waiting on finding out if I've been accepted. If so, I will be researching bullying and its effects on upper primary grade children. If I am not accepted, I will be having a nervous breakdown figuring out what I am going to do come September.
I've always been overweight. In 1999 I started working out and eating better (and a lot less) and lost 85 pounds. I didn't keep up the healthy lifestyle for a variety of reasons and over the past 10 years have gained all the weight back.
I tried several different diets, and in 2003 I went on Optifast. I got really ill on this diet and didn't lose much weight at all (~10lbs), despite eating less than 900 calories a day and running 3 days a week. Since then I have suffered from severe daily headaches that can leave me bedridden and miserable. I have had countless tests and have seen 5 different neurologists. The diagnoses range from chronic daily headache syndrome to chronic daily migraines. Not one of the 5 doctors have had a definitive diagnosis or agreed with one another. It is frustrating, but I try to manage as best as I can.
Earlier last year I had been doing a lot better weight wise and right before I had breast reduction surgery in July. After moving to Scotland and then losing my mum earlier this year, I've managed to gain a lot of weight despite trying various diet plans and recently going back to the gym. I am assuming that this has to do with me eating my emotions and not dealing with how I am feeling over moving and losing my mum. I mostly think I really like food and eating it- I just need to re-learn how to do it in moderation and not lose control.
Right now I am trying to get back into regular workouts as I love how it makes me feel (especially spinning), but I have a hard time staying motivated when I don't see any results. (I know I shouldn't expect to see a lot of results in 2 weeks, but I had hoped to have found I hadn't *gained* even more weight.)
Questions? Comments? Fire away!
24 May 2011
Not myself
I'm not feeling like myself today. I haven't really felt like myself since we came back from London. Even though my feet hurt, I had a lot of energy and felt good. Recently, I just feel tired and sluggish and blah and whatnot. I think it may have to do with the fact I'm out of my vitamin D supplement.
I think I am going to have to find a new and better GP if I am planning on staying here longer. The last time I went and had my ankle looked at, about 30 seconds was spent on examination. It just made me feel dismissed, like my issue wasn't real.
Anyways, I just feel blah. Not depressed (well not anymore than usual), not anxious, just blah. Maybe it is the weather, since it has been raining for what seems like forever now. It rains, we get a bit of sun, it rains. Repeat.
So I have no idea. I'm excited to work out, but can't get the motivation to do it. I have things I need to do and people to call etc, and can't "find the time." I just wish I was at the point where everything came easy; healthy living and eating and working out and working on my dissertation. Someday, some day soon I hope.
Today I had some me time and got my nails done and then I met Steph for lunch. We walked around a bit after and then we came back and I ran a load of laundry and took a nap. I meant to only sleep for a bit but it ended up being way longer than I wanted and missed spinning. :( Bad Cindy.
I also took a few photos of some of the damage that occurred in our neighborhood from the ridic winds here yesterday. Not that it even makes any comparison to what has happened in the US, but it was crazy what some wind can do.
Tomorrow is a new day- hopefully with better choices.
I think I am going to have to find a new and better GP if I am planning on staying here longer. The last time I went and had my ankle looked at, about 30 seconds was spent on examination. It just made me feel dismissed, like my issue wasn't real.
Anyways, I just feel blah. Not depressed (well not anymore than usual), not anxious, just blah. Maybe it is the weather, since it has been raining for what seems like forever now. It rains, we get a bit of sun, it rains. Repeat.
So I have no idea. I'm excited to work out, but can't get the motivation to do it. I have things I need to do and people to call etc, and can't "find the time." I just wish I was at the point where everything came easy; healthy living and eating and working out and working on my dissertation. Someday, some day soon I hope.
Today I had some me time and got my nails done and then I met Steph for lunch. We walked around a bit after and then we came back and I ran a load of laundry and took a nap. I meant to only sleep for a bit but it ended up being way longer than I wanted and missed spinning. :( Bad Cindy.
I also took a few photos of some of the damage that occurred in our neighborhood from the ridic winds here yesterday. Not that it even makes any comparison to what has happened in the US, but it was crazy what some wind can do.
Tomorrow is a new day- hopefully with better choices.
21 May 2011
Yesterday/today catchup
I did about 25 mins of upper body and then C25K. I was VERY sweaty at the end. I wanted to spin some but both bikes were being used and the class was full so I walked to the bus and then headed home. Not bad. :)
I ordered a new Polar HRM that is more up to date and will help me better train. I can't wait to get my Polar FT7 HRM!
2. Grad school-I did meet with my professor on Thursday and he was totally fine that I hadn't gotten very far. We discussed some changes and I will be making for the paper and what else needs to be done. I also ran into some of my classmates and they hadn't done anything really either, so I don't feel bad or behind anymore. So I have 20,000 words to write for it. Good times. I have a TON of research done already. Just need to read it all.
3. Stephanie finished a big paper yesterday so we went out for dinner. I had grilled chicken and it came with a grilled veggie tart. It was delish. I also had some chips- b/c the chips at the Curler's Rest are so delish. And as a treat we had ice cream at the only Coldstone in Glasgow. I had tiramisu. Yum. :)
4. Today it's raining. It's miserable out and I have no desire to go out in it. I did walk a quick 2 miles to Boots and back to get my prescription and some coffee. My ankle is really tender today so staying off it seems like a good idea. Tomorrow I booked into a Body Pump class and that should be a good workout.
As for the rest of today- Doctor Who at 6:45 and some reading. A nice, quiet, lazy day.
04 April 2011
Bleurg
Bleurg. This weight loss and exercise keeps getting derailed. First, my shoulder (which still isn't back to normal), my ankle (which is starting to get better), and my never ending headaches.
My weight is up again- only a pound, but still. I have now gained 30 pounds since my surgery in July. NOT THE RIGHT WAY AROUND.
I'm trying a few things out to see if it helps. I am starting to taper off on some of my meds to see if they are affecting my weight gain. We got a stability ball and a mini trampoline that I can use at home. I downloaded some Tae Bo and I am going to try to get to a spinning class this week. I am walking more, as much as my ankle will let me- as it heals.
I would really like to be down to 200 by the end of the month- which is not likely to happen but I would like it before I go to London- to look and feel better about myself.
My weight is up again- only a pound, but still. I have now gained 30 pounds since my surgery in July. NOT THE RIGHT WAY AROUND.
I'm trying a few things out to see if it helps. I am starting to taper off on some of my meds to see if they are affecting my weight gain. We got a stability ball and a mini trampoline that I can use at home. I downloaded some Tae Bo and I am going to try to get to a spinning class this week. I am walking more, as much as my ankle will let me- as it heals.
I would really like to be down to 200 by the end of the month- which is not likely to happen but I would like it before I go to London- to look and feel better about myself.
20 March 2011
Update
I've been back in Glasgow a week, but I really haven't had much to say. I left last Saturday afternoon, and my mum passed away a few hours after. :( I haven't really been in a "healthy" mindframe, nor have I been extremely off track. I've been on several walks since I got back, but I haven't made the best choices in snacks either. I've just been too distracted mentally not to mention jet lagged earlier in the week.
I am hoping this week is better for working out and eating. Of course I have some sort of cold thing that is making me run down as anything and I feel like crap, so the exercising might have to wait- again. Unless I wake up tomorrow and feel 100% better of course.
I have yet to weigh myself this week b/c I totally forgot today, but I did weigh last week and was up 2 lbs but considering the lack of healthy food and no $ at home and travel and the stress, that wasn't bad at all.
I am hoping this week is better for working out and eating. Of course I have some sort of cold thing that is making me run down as anything and I feel like crap, so the exercising might have to wait- again. Unless I wake up tomorrow and feel 100% better of course.
I have yet to weigh myself this week b/c I totally forgot today, but I did weigh last week and was up 2 lbs but considering the lack of healthy food and no $ at home and travel and the stress, that wasn't bad at all.
15 February 2011
a change will do you good
We took progress photos the other day. I seriously thought I was going to be ill. There was no progress. There was anti-progress. I look like a beached whale. I kid you not. No one should ever have to see such a picture. So......
So I decided to make a change. I decided I would try Weight Watchers again now that I am settled here. I have tried it in the past, but I didn't have success- partially b/c I was having an allergic reaction and found I couldn't seem to lose weight at that time.
I find that the new points system is ok. It is different, and things I took for granted for being healthy seem to be higher in points than I remember. For example, a piece of salmon is 8 points and a 6 inch Subway sandwich is 7.
I like that they now take protein into consideration, but it makes some things higher in points, and I find that protein helps me lose weight and is more filling. I hope that as I go on this week I will find it easier as I learn what is what and how the plan works.
I also ate WAY over points the first 2 days and it looks like I will eat over points today too. Of course eating over would mean eating exercise points as well.
I started working out again as well. A 4+ mile walk yesterday and a trip to the gym today. (walk, elliptical, bike) I am hoping that I can keep it up.
Here I am, on the way to the gym.
I also had another massage today- trying to get my shoulder issues addressed and worked out. I also started chiropractic care again as well.
So that is where I stand at the moment. Let's hope this works.
So I decided to make a change. I decided I would try Weight Watchers again now that I am settled here. I have tried it in the past, but I didn't have success- partially b/c I was having an allergic reaction and found I couldn't seem to lose weight at that time.
I find that the new points system is ok. It is different, and things I took for granted for being healthy seem to be higher in points than I remember. For example, a piece of salmon is 8 points and a 6 inch Subway sandwich is 7.
I like that they now take protein into consideration, but it makes some things higher in points, and I find that protein helps me lose weight and is more filling. I hope that as I go on this week I will find it easier as I learn what is what and how the plan works.
I also ate WAY over points the first 2 days and it looks like I will eat over points today too. Of course eating over would mean eating exercise points as well.
I started working out again as well. A 4+ mile walk yesterday and a trip to the gym today. (walk, elliptical, bike) I am hoping that I can keep it up.
Here I am, on the way to the gym.
I also had another massage today- trying to get my shoulder issues addressed and worked out. I also started chiropractic care again as well.
So that is where I stand at the moment. Let's hope this works.
10 January 2011
Keep on keeping on
The scale is finally moving in the right direction, despite not the best of eating. I'm down to about 3 quid, so I've been eating what I have in the house, which isn't much I am afraid. Frozen pizza and whatnot. And yesterday I went to my first panto, and despite having a good meal before I left I was starving halfway through, and ended up eating a bag of chocolates. :( There were limited choices and I had to find something with no nuts.
I have been trying to replace one meal with a weight loss shake. Granted this is not the most healthy way, but it is reasonable for me since it is on hand, it keeps me from being too hungry in the mornings, and I don't find the taste awful. Once we get a blender I can make my own w/ fruit and yougurt.
I really hope that I can do this, b/c if I do get to see DT in London this summer, I want to look my best. I'm tired of hating what I see in the mirror. I had Stephanie take "before" pics for me. I was disgusted. I can't believe I let myself get so unhealthy.
I'm also worried about my shoulder and my foot. I don't want to have any setbacks as I have started walking more but my foot really hurts. It appears it is the metatarsal bone on my right foot that is hurting. I hope it isn't anything serious. If I could wear trainers every day I would, but with the icy/wet/snowy weather I need to wear wellies which don't have great support. Hopefully when I get my money I can set some sort of additional support for them.
Classes begin again tomorrow so I should be reading for that....
I have been trying to replace one meal with a weight loss shake. Granted this is not the most healthy way, but it is reasonable for me since it is on hand, it keeps me from being too hungry in the mornings, and I don't find the taste awful. Once we get a blender I can make my own w/ fruit and yougurt.
I really hope that I can do this, b/c if I do get to see DT in London this summer, I want to look my best. I'm tired of hating what I see in the mirror. I had Stephanie take "before" pics for me. I was disgusted. I can't believe I let myself get so unhealthy.
I'm also worried about my shoulder and my foot. I don't want to have any setbacks as I have started walking more but my foot really hurts. It appears it is the metatarsal bone on my right foot that is hurting. I hope it isn't anything serious. If I could wear trainers every day I would, but with the icy/wet/snowy weather I need to wear wellies which don't have great support. Hopefully when I get my money I can set some sort of additional support for them.
Classes begin again tomorrow so I should be reading for that....
08 January 2011
Starting over: Day 1
7/1/11
Had a nice lay in and finally got up and went to a place that does half priced lunches. I had a veggie/chic pea sandwich which was delish. It came with fries, and I didn't eat them all.
After we checked out charity shops, finding lots of goodies, got groceries and came home.
I made some grilled veggies and then I was tired so I ended up napping for a bit, and got up and made us some boring pizza, for dinner. Steph is working on her paper and I watched the Tom Petty documentary on BBC4. I had some crumpets and then some crisps b/c I am so hungry right now. My eating/sleeping schedule needs to get back on track!
Had a nice lay in and finally got up and went to a place that does half priced lunches. I had a veggie/chic pea sandwich which was delish. It came with fries, and I didn't eat them all.
After we checked out charity shops, finding lots of goodies, got groceries and came home.
I made some grilled veggies and then I was tired so I ended up napping for a bit, and got up and made us some boring pizza, for dinner. Steph is working on her paper and I watched the Tom Petty documentary on BBC4. I had some crumpets and then some crisps b/c I am so hungry right now. My eating/sleeping schedule needs to get back on track!
08 December 2010
Days 12 and 13
No weight change
I totally forgot to post last night. I was watching tv and thinking about writing my paper. Yesterday I did a bit of grocery shopping and went to the post office. How exciting, right?
Today, I slept, napped, did a load of laundry, cleaned up a bit, and made some soup. I took some notes for my paper as well.
I have to get up early to meet my gf at the airport. I am so glad she will be back. I've been so lonely here. I miss her.
The ice here is still insane. My last class was cancelled as the building is closed. The gym is open limited hours, so even if I wanted to get there, it's hard.
My food choices were ok today, since I had limited options. I had crumpets for breaky and soup for lunch and dinner- since it is all I had. I tried to make chocolate brownie no bake balls with my limited ingredients. FAIL. Oh well. Best try again with the real ingredients.
I'm hoping that once Steph is back I will feel less lonely and go and do things and that this ice will melt and I can actually get out of the house without fearing for my life.
I totally forgot to post last night. I was watching tv and thinking about writing my paper. Yesterday I did a bit of grocery shopping and went to the post office. How exciting, right?
Today, I slept, napped, did a load of laundry, cleaned up a bit, and made some soup. I took some notes for my paper as well.
I have to get up early to meet my gf at the airport. I am so glad she will be back. I've been so lonely here. I miss her.
The ice here is still insane. My last class was cancelled as the building is closed. The gym is open limited hours, so even if I wanted to get there, it's hard.
My food choices were ok today, since I had limited options. I had crumpets for breaky and soup for lunch and dinner- since it is all I had. I tried to make chocolate brownie no bake balls with my limited ingredients. FAIL. Oh well. Best try again with the real ingredients.
I'm hoping that once Steph is back I will feel less lonely and go and do things and that this ice will melt and I can actually get out of the house without fearing for my life.
30 November 2010
Day 5
205, thank goodness, going down
Spent the entire day walking around, freezing. It was so cold and snowed on and off. Got a few things done, but not everything I had hoped. Hopefully things will keep going on a positive note. :)
We got off to a late start so I had a quick bite while out, and a cheese toasty for lunch. :)
Spent the entire day walking around, freezing. It was so cold and snowed on and off. Got a few things done, but not everything I had hoped. Hopefully things will keep going on a positive note. :)
We got off to a late start so I had a quick bite while out, and a cheese toasty for lunch. :)
29 November 2010
Day 4
207 holding ugh
Stomach still a bit off, still feel dehydrated despite all of the water yesterday and today.
I wasn't very hungry most of the day, sort of picked at meals and whatnot.
Went out to get a few things at Tesco; it's an ice rink out there! It isn't safe to walk out there! And it snowed again on top of the ice- lovely. :(
Stomach still a bit off, still feel dehydrated despite all of the water yesterday and today.
I wasn't very hungry most of the day, sort of picked at meals and whatnot.
Went out to get a few things at Tesco; it's an ice rink out there! It isn't safe to walk out there! And it snowed again on top of the ice- lovely. :(
28 November 2010
Day 3
207 lbs FML
I am bloated and my stomach hurts. Obviously a result of my bad eating and no exercise. I know this. It is making the change I need to make now.
Of course here in Scotland they haven't heard of salt or sand and walking out my door is a disaster waiting to happen.
Nothing really to say about today other than I did nothing but work on my paper. I hope I have something positive to report soon.
I am bloated and my stomach hurts. Obviously a result of my bad eating and no exercise. I know this. It is making the change I need to make now.
Of course here in Scotland they haven't heard of salt or sand and walking out my door is a disaster waiting to happen.
Nothing really to say about today other than I did nothing but work on my paper. I hope I have something positive to report soon.
26 November 2010
Day 1
204.8 lbs this morning
Today was a blah day. I am not feeling well; my throat is starting to be sore and I had to go to a workshop today and I didn't sleep well at all.
My eating again was poor- I need to really get a handle on it. It's just been so hard and I don't know why it has been. Being in another country doesn't give me an excuse to eat.
I hope I am feeling better tomorrow- maybe I can go for a walk in the (expected) snow when I take a break from writing my literature review.
Today was a blah day. I am not feeling well; my throat is starting to be sore and I had to go to a workshop today and I didn't sleep well at all.
My eating again was poor- I need to really get a handle on it. It's just been so hard and I don't know why it has been. Being in another country doesn't give me an excuse to eat.
I hope I am feeling better tomorrow- maybe I can go for a walk in the (expected) snow when I take a break from writing my literature review.
welcome and introduction
Hello and welcome to my new weight loss/weight issue/food blog.
About me: I'm a 35 year old grad student studying in Glasgow. I'm from the US, and am enjoying my time here. I'm getting my second masters in educational studies, and will be doing my dissertation on the prevalence of bullying in schools.
I've worked in technology and education since obtaining my B.A in 1997 and I received my M.Ed in Elementary education in 2004.
Weighty issues: I've always been overweight- from the time I was a child on (except for a short time in 2002 or s0). I struggled with my weight all my life, especially growing up. I let it rule my life. I never tried anything new. I never played sports or tried to get involved with activities because I was afraid I would be ridiculed for my weight (as I had been before).
In college I lost some and got down to about a size 11 (juniors) and thought I looked ok. After I graduated in 1997, I gained a lot of weight and got up to about 225.
I finally looked in the mirror and saw how awful I looked and felt. I started working out daily and working with a personal trainer and nuutritionist. I went from 225 to 140. I was active and happy and looked great. But it didn't last long. The moment I deviated from a strict eating (egg whites for breakfast, salad for lunch, pasta or a baked potato for dinner) and working out regimen I gained 20 lbs. I steadily gained back the weight until I got back to 211 4 years ago.
I went on a medically supervised weight loss plan called OptiFast for 3 months. The diet had me subsisting on shakes and bars- at 890 calories a day. I was running 3 miles per day several times a week. I lost about 11 pounds in 3 months. That is usually what people on the plan were losing per week. During that time I nearly collapsed several times due to low blood sugar and blood pressure (getting as low as 60/45). After that happened while I was at work I stopped. I had to.
Since then I have fluctuated from 184-200, and am currently at 204. Since then I have been suffering from chronic daily headaches, where the pain sometimes causes me to be unable to get out of bed. I've seen 4 neurologists, 3 primary care doctors, and countless ER docs. I've had every test under the sun done, a spinal tap, CAT scan, and an MRI. I've tried all sorts of medication, pain killers, and nerve blocks.
This has made it hard to lose weight, especially on days where the pain makes me want to vomit and hide under the duvet. I did go through a period last summer, where I got back to the gym and was feeling better. This summer, in order to try and alleviate the headaches and backpain, I underwent a breast reduction, going from 42DD to 38C. It's been helpful somewhat, but I have not worked out since, and my eating since moving to Scotland has been out of control. I've been eating shortbread and scones and crumpets like they are going out of style.
I need to get back to working out and eating well (not restrictively) and healthy. I want to get back to spinning and running like I used to be able to.
About me: I'm a 35 year old grad student studying in Glasgow. I'm from the US, and am enjoying my time here. I'm getting my second masters in educational studies, and will be doing my dissertation on the prevalence of bullying in schools.
I've worked in technology and education since obtaining my B.A in 1997 and I received my M.Ed in Elementary education in 2004.
Weighty issues: I've always been overweight- from the time I was a child on (except for a short time in 2002 or s0). I struggled with my weight all my life, especially growing up. I let it rule my life. I never tried anything new. I never played sports or tried to get involved with activities because I was afraid I would be ridiculed for my weight (as I had been before).
In college I lost some and got down to about a size 11 (juniors) and thought I looked ok. After I graduated in 1997, I gained a lot of weight and got up to about 225.
I finally looked in the mirror and saw how awful I looked and felt. I started working out daily and working with a personal trainer and nuutritionist. I went from 225 to 140. I was active and happy and looked great. But it didn't last long. The moment I deviated from a strict eating (egg whites for breakfast, salad for lunch, pasta or a baked potato for dinner) and working out regimen I gained 20 lbs. I steadily gained back the weight until I got back to 211 4 years ago.
I went on a medically supervised weight loss plan called OptiFast for 3 months. The diet had me subsisting on shakes and bars- at 890 calories a day. I was running 3 miles per day several times a week. I lost about 11 pounds in 3 months. That is usually what people on the plan were losing per week. During that time I nearly collapsed several times due to low blood sugar and blood pressure (getting as low as 60/45). After that happened while I was at work I stopped. I had to.
Since then I have fluctuated from 184-200, and am currently at 204. Since then I have been suffering from chronic daily headaches, where the pain sometimes causes me to be unable to get out of bed. I've seen 4 neurologists, 3 primary care doctors, and countless ER docs. I've had every test under the sun done, a spinal tap, CAT scan, and an MRI. I've tried all sorts of medication, pain killers, and nerve blocks.
This has made it hard to lose weight, especially on days where the pain makes me want to vomit and hide under the duvet. I did go through a period last summer, where I got back to the gym and was feeling better. This summer, in order to try and alleviate the headaches and backpain, I underwent a breast reduction, going from 42DD to 38C. It's been helpful somewhat, but I have not worked out since, and my eating since moving to Scotland has been out of control. I've been eating shortbread and scones and crumpets like they are going out of style.
I need to get back to working out and eating well (not restrictively) and healthy. I want to get back to spinning and running like I used to be able to.
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