Not myself

I'm not feeling like myself today.  I haven't really felt like myself since we came back from London.  Even though my feet hurt, I had a lot of energy and felt good.  Recently, I just feel tired and sluggish and blah and whatnot.  I think it may have to do with the fact I'm out of my vitamin D supplement.

I think I am going to have to find a new and better GP if I am planning on staying here longer.  The last time I went and had my ankle looked at, about 30 seconds was spent on examination.  It just made me feel dismissed, like my issue wasn't real.

Anyways, I just feel blah.  Not depressed (well not anymore than usual), not anxious, just blah.  Maybe it is the weather, since it has been raining for what seems like forever now.  It rains, we get a bit of sun, it rains.  Repeat.

So I have no idea.  I'm excited to work out, but can't get the motivation to do it.  I have things I need to do and people to call etc, and can't "find the time."  I just wish I was at the point where everything came easy; healthy living and eating and working out and working on my dissertation.  Someday, some day soon I hope.

Today I had some me time and got my nails done and then I met Steph for lunch.  We walked around a bit after and then we came back and I ran a load of laundry and took a nap.  I meant to only sleep for a bit but it ended up being way longer than I wanted and missed spinning.  :(  Bad Cindy.

I also took a few photos of some of the damage that occurred in our neighborhood from the ridic winds here yesterday.  Not that it even makes any comparison to what has happened in the US, but it was crazy what some wind can do.

Tomorrow is a new day- hopefully with better choices.

Lazy Sunday

Today was a very lazy Sunday.  Steph and I went out for breakfast/lunch and then went to Tesco to pick up a few things.  I wasn't feeling 100% and Steph was recovering from her long walk yesterday  - so we just watched tv and did pretty much nothing.

I talked to my sister and nieces on skype and then we watched the BAFTA's.  I was not impressed overall with the winners.

Tomorrow I need to work on my dissertation and workout.  I also need to make a few phone calls.

Steph and I are also running the Race for Life and we need sponsors!  Please donate if you can!

I hope everyone had a great weekend.

A new home

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xxx

Starting over: Day 1

7/1/11

Had a nice lay in and finally got up and went to a place that does half priced lunches.  I had a veggie/chic pea sandwich which was delish.  It came with fries, and I didn't eat them all.

After we checked out charity shops, finding lots of goodies, got groceries and came home.



I made some grilled veggies and then I was tired so I ended up napping for a bit, and got up and made us some boring pizza, for dinner.  Steph is working on her paper and I watched the Tom Petty documentary on BBC4.  I had some crumpets and then some crisps b/c I am so hungry right now.  My eating/sleeping schedule needs to get back on track!

Days 12 and 13

No weight change

 

I totally forgot to post last night.  I was watching tv and thinking about writing my paper.   Yesterday I did a bit of grocery shopping and went to the post office.  How exciting, right?

Today, I slept, napped, did a load of laundry, cleaned up a bit, and made some soup.  I took some notes for my paper as well.

I have to get up early to meet my gf at the airport.  I am so glad she will be back.  I've been so lonely here.  I miss her.

The ice here is still insane.  My last class was cancelled as the building is closed.  The gym is open limited hours, so even if I wanted to get there, it's hard.

My food choices were ok today, since I had limited options.  I had crumpets for breaky and soup for lunch and dinner- since it is all I had.  I tried to make chocolate brownie no bake balls with my limited ingredients.  FAIL.  Oh well.  Best try again with the real ingredients.

I'm hoping that once Steph is back I will feel less lonely and go and do things and that this ice will melt and I can actually get out of the house without fearing for my life.

Day 10

208 ugh fml

Today I went out and did some Christmas shopping and walked around Buchanan.  On my return I got off at Hillhead and went and got fresh veggies and fruit and walked home from there, popping into the charity shops on the way.

 

I got some adorable things for my girlfriend and have a few more things I need to get, but my hands were full as it was with the other packages and the fruit and veg.

 

I hope this week is better for me, and I get back to feeling more like me.

Food/exercise log 8/21

Today was my last day of summer work.  I had a neuro appt and I slept for shit so no gym today.  Also it was like 10000 degrees and humid and I just felt awful.  I finally have pain meds and lidocaine patches again.

 I really need to get focused on my eating.  It would help if I had food in the fridge, huh?

Breakfast:
blueberry muffin
iced coffee ((not even half it was gross))

snack:
some chips and 2 munchkins (class party)

lunch:
chicken

snack:
some Indian veggie fritters

Dinner:
pasta

Food/exercise log 8/20

Today I had personal training.  I got weighed and had my body fat % measured (nearly half of me is fat awesome sauce!) Ugh.  And measurements were done.  Damn.  I don't remember being this large even when I weighed 25 more pounds.  Ugh.  

Anyways I am supposed to do weight training 3-4 times per week and cardio interval training 4-5 times a week and regular cardio . . .and I am like when I am supposed to do it all and take classes I want to try?  Well I will have plenty of time on my hands after tomorrow when I am no longer working.  Granted I am going to go away for a few days, but still I will be able to work out plenty when I get home and all.

I soaked in the hot tub again but I'd kill for a massage.  My back is killing.

breakfast
viviano smoothie
iced coffee

snack:
cereal bar

lunch:
mc chicken sandwich (i have my period ok, TMI yes, but I wanted something fried)
small fries

snack:
swedish fish (I needed sugar!)

dinner:
salad
1/2 turkey sandwich

Food/Exercise log 8/19

Made it to work painfully today.  LOL.  I'm tired and my shoulders are sore from Spinning, but not my legs.  After the chiro today I did go to the gym and use the ellliptical for a half hour.  I have personal training tomorrow so I don't want to be all worn out.  I sat in the hot tub and chilled and then showered and came home b/c I was starving.

Breakfast:
Iced coffee, toast, yogurt

snack:
granola fruit bar

lunch:
lean cuisine
tortilla chips

snack:
canteloupe

dinner:
rice and veggies
yogurt
cereal bar

 

Monday 8/17

Breakfast:
iced coffee, iced coffee, half a muffin

snack:
clif bar

lunch:
healthy choice meal

dinner: bagel

It's too hot and humid here to eat or move.

I did join the new gym today, but I didn't work out.  After I joined it was like 2 and I was starving; not the best time to work out.  And then I was going to go later but I had to make my finals and it is way too hot here and after having an upset tummy all weekend I didn't want to make myself ill.  I do NOT do well in heat and humidity.  

So tomorrow night is the plan to work out.  Go me.

It is actually less than I wanted to spend and there are so many classes and I really think this will be a good place.  I also booked some personal training sessions for a little extra (I need to do this) so I am hopeful.  My friend Amy works out like crazy there so I am hoping she will keep me going.  

Sunday 8/16

Breakfast:
iced coffee
turkey bacon, eggs, 3 small pancakes (my sister made me breakfast)

lunch:
4 chicken nuggets and leftover tortellini

dinner:
rice
pretzel chips and hummus

Lame food today.  Eh.  It was friggin hot.  I didn't work out but I am feeling it from yesterday in my arms and abs but I did chase my nieces around for a bit.

Tomorrow I am going to new gym to get a tour and work out and learn about the place and see if I can possibly afford it.

Saturday 8/15

breakfast
iced coffee
croissant

lunch:
slice of pizza
small salad

dinner:
a little spinach tortellini and some chicken

After Target and a minor freakout with my car, I started my laundry and I headed to the new gym I wanted to check out.  This place is dreamy.  It is an all women's gym with tons of equipment, cardio rooms, classes, and a to die for locker room with lotion, towels, hair dryers, all there.  They have a eucalyptus steam room and a huge whirlpool and a sauna.  The showers are private and have shower gel, shampoo, and conditioner for you.  It was amazing.  I want to work out there so bad, but idk if I can afford it.  I am meeting with the membership woman Monday at 1 to get a tour and find out about cost and shit.  Since I will be unemployed in a week I would love to be able to work out there.  If I can cut out some stuff and find a way, I think I will.  This place is amazing.  

Anyways I grabbed a slice and some salad after and headed home where I immediately had some tummy issues.  Not sure if it is from working out or the heat/humidity, or PMS, or the major anxiety I've had over the past 2 days.....  but it was like that all afternoon.  I ended up napping for a while since I was really feeling ill.   I feel okish now, but my head is bothering me as usual and I have like no meds left which is an issue.  <sigh>

At least I made it to the gym.  :)

Friday 8/14

Breakfast:
spinach bagel, small, with a scrambled egg- no butter

snack:
clif bar

Lunch:
bulgur and veggies microwave meal

dinner:
rice and veggies
strawberry and skim milk smoothie

Today was not a good day.  I've had a headache all day and nothing has helped. I also had a huge panic attack at work and left really quick at the end of the day, and cabbed it home, which I never would normally do since it was $20.  (My car was in for service so I took the T to work, and there is no way I would have made it home an hour + on the T and the bus.)  I barely made it home; my stomach was NOT happy.  I rested for a bit and ate a little and then I slept.  I went and got my car.  So I did get a little walking in.  

We had some tiles replaced in the bathroom today so there is no showering until  tomorrow, so it may motivate me to go to the gym so I can shower LOL.  I do want to check out that gym, so maybe tomorrow will be the day.

So far today (to be updated as the day goes on)

Breakfast:
*iced coffee
*fage yogurt
*flax granola (1 cup)

snack:
90 cal granola bar

lunch:
1 cup pasta
1 lean cuisine mixed with the pasta
crackers and butter b/c I was so frigging starving I couldn't wait (there are no more so I can't keep eating them)

dinner:
bulgur and veggies
bagel

eh.  I need to make better choices.  I need to not get so hungry I eat everything in sight.  6 more days of work and maybe after that things will work better for me.. . . .

busy

I haven't forgotten about this account, I've just been busy and still not feeling well.

I'm exhausted all the time and my head hurts all the time and it is hard to want to watch what I eat and work out.  I have joined a group of women and we are entering a challenge at a local women's gym.  I got 8 free visits to this place as well so I should really check it out.  I even went and got new workout clothes since the shorts I had been working out in had seen better days, and even that doesn't motivate me.  I'm hoping the change in meds will help but it's only been 3 days so . . . . .

I also went to the store and went and bought some microwave meals to work on portion control and yogurt and cereal for breakfast so I can stop eating like crap.  I need to try harder, it's just hard some days....


Breakfast:
fage yogurt
3 munchkins

snack:
1/2 bagel

lunch:
turkey and swiss sandwich
baked lays

snack:
cheese and crackers

dinner:
healthy choice meal
toast
fage yogurt
 

quick update

Not much to say or report.  Been trying to keep an eye on my eating with being on the juice and all.  ;)

It's been hard since most of this week I was in agonizing pain.

I am going to my primary this week and maybe she has some ideas, idk.  

Unfortunately steroids=hunger for me so....

But I cleaned the house today and sweat my ass off. 

Gym tomorrow since I have NO excuse

food/exercise log 7/28

I've had a horrid headache since Sunday and I just feel awful.

I might start counting WW points as opposed to calories since I can count to 24 easier than 1780 during the day in my head.

Breakfast:
iced coffee
blueberry muffin

Lunch:
small chicken salad sandwich
crackers

dinner:
pasta
small cup of froz. yougurt

No exercise. 

I had a steroid infusion and i hope that works soon b/.c i am in agony and i want to work out so bad but I hurt so much.  

busy, busy, busy

I've been so busy I haven't had time to post what has been going on w/ my diet and or exercise.

Well not much.

Hopefully this week will be better, I have 2 days off and less work to be doing.  Unfortunately I will be starting a course of steroids which will not be helpful w/ my weight but maybe will get rid of my headaches for a while.

Today has been good so far.  I had some cereal for breakfast and Subway (turkey on wheat, splash of vinegreitte).  I have to go play softball soon so I am sure I will sweat my ass off since it is like 80 and super humid.

Food/exercise log for 7/21/09

breakfast:
iced coffee 90
turkey sandwich 270

snack: iced lemon loaf free from starbucks; i have no willpower 300

lunch:
triathelete 178
snack wrap 300

dinner
rice 180
tuna sandwich 360
cereal bar 100

total: 1778

I may be going to the gym later, idk my head is killing and yeah long interview is long

Food/exercise log for 7/20/09

Breakfast:
iced coffee: 90
reduced fat berry coffee cake: 320

snack:
nutrigrain bar 140 cals

Lunch:
Pasta: appx 500 cals

snack: ff yogurt 110 cals

dinner:
rice: 180
veggies: 90

snack:
m&m's 200 :(  omg the pms is killing me srsly

Workout: walking from the T and back
I was going to check out a spinning class tonight but when I got home I had such a headache and felt weird so I had to lay down and ended up napping most of the afternoon and then had to finish my final and do paperwork for the interview tomorrow.  Maybe tomorrow?