about me (image heavy)

Hi, I'm Cindy, and you might know me from

cindy_lou_who8

 !  Yes, I am such a dork.  A dork who needs to lose weight.


My story:

I've always been heavy.  Except for that short time in 2001 when I weighed 140 or so.  Too bad there is no photographic evidence of this so it never happened.  But it did.

I was a heavyish kid.  Not super obese by anyone's standards. 

Here I am at 12 or so.  I think I was going into 7th grade.  I don't look awful.  I think I thought I did.  I wasn't nearly as skinny as any of my classmates and I wasn't allowed to play sports.  I probably would have been heavier but I rode my bike/scooter/walked all the time and everywhere when I was younger.  I lived in a really safe neighborhood and my parents had no issues with me riding my bike w/ no helmet down huge hills, but I couldn't play soccer b/c I might lose an eye.  *eyeroll*



Here I am in high school, maybe my junior year?  I was a 13/14 in high school.



By my senior year I was either fatter or dress makers didn't make size 14 dresses.  I couldn't find a dress for the prom.  My mom would have paid whatever to make me happy but there were NO dresses.  I ended up wearing the dress I wore my soph. year.  I don't have any pics still, I will ask my bff, above.

By college I was like whatever.  I met people who liked me and didn't care about my weight so I didn't really think of it.  In my junior year I lost some weight and was down to an 11 and was able to share clothes with a girl who I considered skinny.

In New Orleans in 1996~  I'm the one with super super red hair all in black.


Around the same time....


After college, I was at my heaviest.  I weighed 225 in 1999-2000.   I don't have any pics from then.  I was miserable and disgusted with myself.  So I worked out, ate tons of egg whites and drank a lot of coffee.  I had a good support system and then I ended up breaking up with that boyfriend and going out with the evil ex.  

In 2001 I got down to about 140ish and maintained that for a short time.  I think this is from that time period or maybe a year after when I had gained about 20 pounds back.  I'd be happy at that weight right now; 160ish.

Me in N. Conway. 



My family




After that, combined with not working out, having a crappy relationship and his mom's good cooking, and moving back home, I steadily gained the weight back.

2002/3? with my mom and sister at my grandmother's bday


2005: with my girls meeting Jon Farriss


2005 at the Timlin 5K w/ Mike Timlin


So since then I have gone up and down 5-10 pounds.  In 2006 I gained 10 pounds and was at my heaviest since 2000 and weighed 211.  I was angry at myself and decided to go on Optifast.  This is a medically supervised weight loss program where you consume 890 calories a day in shakes and bars.  It is for people who are seriously overweight or who need to lose weight for lap band/gastric bypass.  I lost about 12-13 pounds in 3 months.  On 890 calories a day and I was running 3 times a week then.  It was very frustrating and the dr's there had no idea why I wasn't losing weight.  

Before I went off the plan I found I was getting dizzy and almost passing out.  I found that my b/p was dropping to around 60/30 WHICH WAS NOT SAFE.  I said fuck it and went home and ate a pizza.  Seriously.  It was not working for me at all.  I was bitchy and hungry and the shakes tasted like ASS and were expensive as all fuck.

So since then I have not lost any weight despite trying.  (or not trying sometimes).  I have PCOS (poly cystic ovarian syndrome) and it is hard to lose weight when you have this which is a cause of PCOS.  Oh the drama.  I've also been experiencing excruciating headaches for the past 3 years that seem to be idiopathic.  I've seen 5 primary doctors, countless ER doctors, and am about to see my third neurologist.  It has not made working out easy.  It is hard to move when your head is splitting.

Last summer w/  


Me and Bronson Arroyo this winter


Head shot on NYE 1/09


Head shot 7/11


I will get L. to take a pic of me today for comparisons. 

At any rate I would be happy to lose 40-50 pounds.  Currently I weigh 198 and I am 5'1.5".  I "should" weigh 120ish but I do not think that will ever happen unless I have weight loss surgery or lose a limb.  

So what  I will be doing is posting my workouts and what I've been eating and please feel free to make s
uggestions/yell at me/etc. 

If you read this far I am impressed.