Sorry it has taken so long to write this up! I still need to upload my pics, but I just haven't had time!
Set list:
Suicide Blonde
Devil Inside
Kiss the Dirt
Pretty Vegas
Taste It (no oral sexings this time :( ) I don't care if it's old, it's still hot!
JD leaves.... :(
Acoustic of Don't Change- Kirk sings (This was beautiful!)
Mystify-en francais
New Sensation w/ some chick ( I totally missed her name!)
JD's back...!.
Beautiful Girl
The Stairs
Mediate
Need You Tonight
Not Enough Time
Disappear
Bitter Tears
Original Sin
What You Need
Never Tear Us Apart
Encore:
By My Side-Andrew sings
Mystify
The boys came out in matching black suits (kinda made me think of the Beatles,or really hot gangsters!) and JD's tie didn't stay on long at all! They were rocking; and to me it was just like any of the other shows I had seen- the chemistry was still there!
I knew that this tour was to promote the new 'Original Sin' so I was not expecting to hear anything from 'Switch' so I was very excited when they played Pretty Vegas!
I was also bummed out when JD left, but it was really cool to have Kirk sing Don't Change. However, I wasn't really thrilled with Mystify in French. I prefer it to be all rocked out.
JD did come back out in an Original Skin tshirt and they rocked the classics! I was excited to hear Mediate and The Stairs done live.
I was hoping for a double encore, but the time ordinance people made sure the show ended at 9. :( I would have loved to have heard a rockin' Don't Change once again.
But don't take my word for it. Here are some videos from that day in London! (These are not mine! I just searched youtube!)
Suicide Blonde
Never Tear Us Apart
Disappear
Pretty Vegas
The Stairs
26 June 2011
24 June 2011
The Power of Positive Thinking?
Anyone who knows me, or who reads this blog for that matter (which is probably why I don't get many comments) knows or has read that I am a glass is half empty kinda gal. I am always negative. Nothing is every right. Nothing ever goes right. I'm a mess, a disaster, and nothing good ever happens to me.
I certainly feel that way right now. This year has sucked so far. I've had health issues. My mum has died. I've had academic issues. My flat has been robbed, and belongings stolen. I can't lose weight. I was sick for over a month. I went to London and got spat on. I could go on.
So while I am very aware of how negative I am, I wonder how much of this is the fault of negative thinking? I mean I am sure I didn't have a cold/infection/whatever for a month + because I was upset about being ill. I am sure my flat wasn't burgled because I am down on myself all the time, right?
My question is, is that if I were more positive, would things go right? Would finishing my dissertation be a breeze? Will I meet David Tennant next week? Will I get into the PhD programme or get a fab job offer? Will I suddenly lose 20 pounds and get rid of this headache I've had for 5 years?
Because I will be honest. I am starting to panic. My dissertation is due on 3 August. (I had no idea what the due date was b/c I didn't see the attachment I was sent before today and I really thought I had more time.) I still don't know what the deal will be with the PhD programme. I was under the impression that all the document were received based on an email I received but I checked the online checker thing and it said it was on hold waiting for documents. And if I don't get in, how am I going to get home? Will I have a place to live, a job, anything? I am really in a panic here. People always say things will work out, but I don't want to go back home and be homeless and have nothing at all.
So do I think positively and get on with it or do I keep with my negative (but realistic as I always thought) ways? And that way I will be pleased when the outcome is positive, but not disappointed if it isn't.
Ok. Procrastination over.
I certainly feel that way right now. This year has sucked so far. I've had health issues. My mum has died. I've had academic issues. My flat has been robbed, and belongings stolen. I can't lose weight. I was sick for over a month. I went to London and got spat on. I could go on.
So while I am very aware of how negative I am, I wonder how much of this is the fault of negative thinking? I mean I am sure I didn't have a cold/infection/whatever for a month + because I was upset about being ill. I am sure my flat wasn't burgled because I am down on myself all the time, right?
My question is, is that if I were more positive, would things go right? Would finishing my dissertation be a breeze? Will I meet David Tennant next week? Will I get into the PhD programme or get a fab job offer? Will I suddenly lose 20 pounds and get rid of this headache I've had for 5 years?
Because I will be honest. I am starting to panic. My dissertation is due on 3 August. (I had no idea what the due date was b/c I didn't see the attachment I was sent before today and I really thought I had more time.) I still don't know what the deal will be with the PhD programme. I was under the impression that all the document were received based on an email I received but I checked the online checker thing and it said it was on hold waiting for documents. And if I don't get in, how am I going to get home? Will I have a place to live, a job, anything? I am really in a panic here. People always say things will work out, but I don't want to go back home and be homeless and have nothing at all.
So do I think positively and get on with it or do I keep with my negative (but realistic as I always thought) ways? And that way I will be pleased when the outcome is positive, but not disappointed if it isn't.
Ok. Procrastination over.
22 June 2011
Failure to communicate
I know many of you bloggers and readers out there (especially bloggers) have tied your careers in with your blog. But what happens when something happens that makes you wonder if you are in the right field at all?
I've always been more book smart than social smart. It's a no brainer. I did REALLY well in my first Master's program. I had a 3.75, and my lowest grade was a B+ and that was one class. All my other classes were A or A-.
Now here in Glasgow, my grades are not remotely close to being where they were back home. In fact I got a paper back today that pretty much ripped me a new one, told me I didn't understand the author, and so on. (Which is interesting b/c I used the same argument in my first paper and did really well.) I also wrote the paper in 2 days, not having realized it was due. I was not really with it at the time with having just arrived back from the states and all of the heartache that those few weeks brought.
It is making me really question whether or not I am going to do well with my dissertation, and especially if I am even going to get into the PhD program. And if I do get in, have I set myself up to fail already? I know I should be using this as an opportunity for growth, but right now, I need to know if this is as good as I am going to get academically, and if I should just go back to what (I think) I'm good at.
In the end I know I will be ok if I am not accepted. I can still use my dissertation as a jumping off point to write a book or paper on bullying if I choose to. On the other hand, I was kind of getting excited to have those extra letters after my name.....
Have any of you ever experienced work challenges like this?
I've always been more book smart than social smart. It's a no brainer. I did REALLY well in my first Master's program. I had a 3.75, and my lowest grade was a B+ and that was one class. All my other classes were A or A-.
Now here in Glasgow, my grades are not remotely close to being where they were back home. In fact I got a paper back today that pretty much ripped me a new one, told me I didn't understand the author, and so on. (Which is interesting b/c I used the same argument in my first paper and did really well.) I also wrote the paper in 2 days, not having realized it was due. I was not really with it at the time with having just arrived back from the states and all of the heartache that those few weeks brought.
It is making me really question whether or not I am going to do well with my dissertation, and especially if I am even going to get into the PhD program. And if I do get in, have I set myself up to fail already? I know I should be using this as an opportunity for growth, but right now, I need to know if this is as good as I am going to get academically, and if I should just go back to what (I think) I'm good at.
In the end I know I will be ok if I am not accepted. I can still use my dissertation as a jumping off point to write a book or paper on bullying if I choose to. On the other hand, I was kind of getting excited to have those extra letters after my name.....
Have any of you ever experienced work challenges like this?
Neuro update
So today was my actual neuro appt. I went all the way to Southern General yesterday and found that the appt was today. I'm SO smart. I thought I was seeing a new neuro- but I saw the same one I saw the last time.
I gave him the rundown and he does not think that I have anything internally wrong with my head. He does think the headaches are chronic daily treatment resistant migraines. He gave me 2 choices. To go back to the beginning and start over, or to go on a medication that causes severe weight gain and hair loss. Which do you think I chose? As if I need any more difficulties losing weight. *eyeroll*
So I have to go to the GP tomorrow to get 2 new prescriptions. One which is like amitriptaline that they can titrate up, and one for a triptan to help with the pain, but it can only be taken twice a week (so it's like playing Russian roulette as to when the headache is the worst.)
This has been going on 5 years. 5 years. *sigh*
I gave him the rundown and he does not think that I have anything internally wrong with my head. He does think the headaches are chronic daily treatment resistant migraines. He gave me 2 choices. To go back to the beginning and start over, or to go on a medication that causes severe weight gain and hair loss. Which do you think I chose? As if I need any more difficulties losing weight. *eyeroll*
So I have to go to the GP tomorrow to get 2 new prescriptions. One which is like amitriptaline that they can titrate up, and one for a triptan to help with the pain, but it can only be taken twice a week (so it's like playing Russian roulette as to when the headache is the worst.)
This has been going on 5 years. 5 years. *sigh*
21 June 2011
The price of being female
Today I did something I never thought I would. I got my legs waxed.
Now I've attempted home waxing before, and it was a pretty failed attempt. Time has passed and while it should, I repeat should be summer here (RAIN RAIN GO AWAY) shaving my legs is something that must be kept up in the summer, at least for me. However, my shower is wee, and trying to shave in it is like being a contortionist. So I decided I would go and have my legs waxed. I mean, how bad could it be. Women have parts more delicate waxed every day. (Which is now something I will never EVER contemplate)
OH. MY. FREAKING A. OW.
NEVER AGAIN.
If my mum were still alive she would be laughing at me so hard right now. In fact I am sure she is.
It hurt. My legs still sting. Not to mention that she missed a few spots I had to clean up on my own. Not to mention I already feel like I am stubbly. Hrm. Do I need to exfoliate again?
So that added to a day where I went all the way to Southern General to find that my neuro appt is tomorrow and I got rained on and I still don't feel 100%. F-.
Tomorrow- on the docket: The neuro appt and a hope to get a haircut as well. My bangs are out of control!
Now I've attempted home waxing before, and it was a pretty failed attempt. Time has passed and while it should, I repeat should be summer here (RAIN RAIN GO AWAY) shaving my legs is something that must be kept up in the summer, at least for me. However, my shower is wee, and trying to shave in it is like being a contortionist. So I decided I would go and have my legs waxed. I mean, how bad could it be. Women have parts more delicate waxed every day. (Which is now something I will never EVER contemplate)
OH. MY. FREAKING A. OW.
NEVER AGAIN.
If my mum were still alive she would be laughing at me so hard right now. In fact I am sure she is.
It hurt. My legs still sting. Not to mention that she missed a few spots I had to clean up on my own. Not to mention I already feel like I am stubbly. Hrm. Do I need to exfoliate again?
So that added to a day where I went all the way to Southern General to find that my neuro appt is tomorrow and I got rained on and I still don't feel 100%. F-.
Tomorrow- on the docket: The neuro appt and a hope to get a haircut as well. My bangs are out of control!
Today's eats
I am not sure if I am feeling so lethargic due to still being sick or the low carb diet. I didn't get nearly enough done, napped, and not much else.
I wasn't as hungry today- but right now I am SO sick of chicken. Ugh. I just want a huge salad. I may not make it through the all protein phase and just go right to protein + veggies and limit carbs. I need energy for my brain to get my dissertation done, so maybe this wasn't the BEST time to try to cut carbs cold turkey.
Tomorrow I have a neuro appt. With my 6th neuro. :(
Breakfast:
2 scrambled eggs
oat bran pancake
coffee
lunch
can of tuna
1/2 chicken breast
cucumber stuff that Steph made and I didn't want it to go bad
dinner
2 chicken breasts
1/2 pancake Steph didn't eat earlier
dessert
activia yogurt + some fat free plain yogurt
And with that- bedtime!
I wasn't as hungry today- but right now I am SO sick of chicken. Ugh. I just want a huge salad. I may not make it through the all protein phase and just go right to protein + veggies and limit carbs. I need energy for my brain to get my dissertation done, so maybe this wasn't the BEST time to try to cut carbs cold turkey.
Tomorrow I have a neuro appt. With my 6th neuro. :(
Breakfast:
2 scrambled eggs
oat bran pancake
coffee
lunch
can of tuna
1/2 chicken breast
cucumber stuff that Steph made and I didn't want it to go bad
dinner
2 chicken breasts
1/2 pancake Steph didn't eat earlier
dessert
activia yogurt + some fat free plain yogurt
And with that- bedtime!
19 June 2011
New diet plan
While I was waiting to see the doctor the other day, I was thumbing through some magazine and there was a feature on the Dukan diet. When I got home with my weeks worth of antibiotics I did some research on it, did up my profile, and decided that I would try this out.
What it entails:
A 4 phase plan where you start off with protein foods, then merge into the next stage where you alternate protein days with protein and veggie days, and then into the last 2 phases where you begin to slowly add in "regular" foods and learn to eat in moderation. (The website and book make this more clear than I am right now I am sure.)
The website gave me an idea of how long I would be on each phase and a target weight as well. (the target weight is higher than my ideal goal- but given my difficulty in even losing a pound, having something that may seem more attainable is good for me right now.) I'm eating eggs, chicken, fish, yoghurt, low fat dairy, and oat bran. I haven't felt really deprived, but I have been hungry.
Now, for some of you this may seem like a fad diet or not healthy or dangerous, or not Earth friendly with the addition of protein sources. I know that this may not be a perfect solution. I know that I may not even agree 100% philosophically with the increased protein and no veggies/carbs in the attack phase. However, having PCOS, and knowing I need to be on a lower carb diet b/c of this (as I have been told) it is a realistic plan that has set things that I can and cannot eat, and that is what I need right now. I also know it is not forever. If I get to the end of my attack phase (7 days) and I have not seen results, I will stop. Steph has even agreed to do this with me (and has already lost over 6 lbs!). Unfortunately, I have not seen the results she has.
Day 1: -3 lbs (YAY)
Day 2 +2 (BOO)
Day 3: +0.4 (BOO)
I could make excuses for this, but I don't really have any. I've been following the plan. Granted I am still sick and on antibiotics, not to mention that the painters are in right now (just what I needed!), and who knows what either/both of those things have done to my body right now. I will just have to wait and see. The site said I should lose 6 lbs in the induction phase. I hope I do. I need a boost to my waistline and my self-esteem so that I can keep going and fighting.
What I ask for right now is support, not flaming or criticism for making this choice. Thank you.
PS: I also put in for a dietician referral. Given how long it took for the neuro/pt one, I expect to get it by my birthday.
What it entails:
A 4 phase plan where you start off with protein foods, then merge into the next stage where you alternate protein days with protein and veggie days, and then into the last 2 phases where you begin to slowly add in "regular" foods and learn to eat in moderation. (The website and book make this more clear than I am right now I am sure.)
The website gave me an idea of how long I would be on each phase and a target weight as well. (the target weight is higher than my ideal goal- but given my difficulty in even losing a pound, having something that may seem more attainable is good for me right now.) I'm eating eggs, chicken, fish, yoghurt, low fat dairy, and oat bran. I haven't felt really deprived, but I have been hungry.
Now, for some of you this may seem like a fad diet or not healthy or dangerous, or not Earth friendly with the addition of protein sources. I know that this may not be a perfect solution. I know that I may not even agree 100% philosophically with the increased protein and no veggies/carbs in the attack phase. However, having PCOS, and knowing I need to be on a lower carb diet b/c of this (as I have been told) it is a realistic plan that has set things that I can and cannot eat, and that is what I need right now. I also know it is not forever. If I get to the end of my attack phase (7 days) and I have not seen results, I will stop. Steph has even agreed to do this with me (and has already lost over 6 lbs!). Unfortunately, I have not seen the results she has.
Day 1: -3 lbs (YAY)
Day 2 +2 (BOO)
Day 3: +0.4 (BOO)
I could make excuses for this, but I don't really have any. I've been following the plan. Granted I am still sick and on antibiotics, not to mention that the painters are in right now (just what I needed!), and who knows what either/both of those things have done to my body right now. I will just have to wait and see. The site said I should lose 6 lbs in the induction phase. I hope I do. I need a boost to my waistline and my self-esteem so that I can keep going and fighting.
What I ask for right now is support, not flaming or criticism for making this choice. Thank you.
PS: I also put in for a dietician referral. Given how long it took for the neuro/pt one, I expect to get it by my birthday.
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